tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-26256521081516917412024-02-07T20:26:29.855-05:00Neon StarAnother 18 year old star gone too soon.
The teenage culture of Fast, Fun, Easy, and More took her breath away before she even graduated from High School.
SADD beyond descriptionblu-starhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11394985016857726633noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2625652108151691741.post-52594861270264921862013-04-25T11:08:00.002-04:002013-04-25T11:16:48.665-04:00Eight Years Without You Emily Jasmine<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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"I Forgive"<br />
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I' ve heard advice for the bereaved that forgiveness<br />
is an important part of "healing." I 've worked hard at that<br />
elusive forgiveness, and came to the realization today that I<br />
...am actually able to forgive quite a lot.<br />
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* I forgive myself for not forgiving the people that<br />
caused my daughter's death. Some things are just not<br />
"Forgivable," and she would understand.<br />
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* I forgive others for sharing their "miracles," with me,<br />
not understanding how cruelly this attacks my heart, as I<br />
wonder where my daughter's miracle was.<br />
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* I forgive others for not understanding me, I don't<br />
understand anything anymore, so I can't expect others to<br />
understand me either.<br />
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* I forgive myself for not being able to do all of the things<br />
I used to be able to do. I don't function as well as I used<br />
to, and that's okay.<br />
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* I forgive others for continuing to live in that other world<br />
where I once lived with my daughter. It's a good world,<br />
and I miss it a lot.<br />
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* I forgive myself for no longer fitting into that world and<br />
not always being able to fake it. I am different now.<br />
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* I forgive others for avoiding me. They don't know what<br />
to say and, quite frankly, that leaves me with nothing to<br />
say to them either.<br />
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* I forgive my daughter for leaving me. She loved life and<br />
she loved me. I believe she loves me still.<br />
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This is probably not what people mean when they say<br />
we need to "forgive," but it's the best I can do. It's enough<br />
that I can do anything at all, and maybe they will forgive<br />
me as well.*<br />
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~Debbie Ortega<br />
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